People keep telling me I'm gaining muscle, but I really don't think I've been lifting weights to the point that I've already built up enough muscle to outweigh any loss. I only do Body Pump twice a week, and mostly focus on cardio. I'm really considering getting blood work done. I've thought for a while that how rapidly I gained weight after my divorce was not normal, and how hard it is to take it off isn't either. I'm not expecting a walk in the park, but a month of working my butt off and eating clean should have SOME results.
Regardless, I'm going to keep on keeping on. I see a small difference in the mirror, and even if it's just mental, it's enough to keep me motivated. I wanted to make a list of some reasons that I want to lose the weight, to remind myself on days when I'm not as motivated. Yes, I realize some of these are very shallow, but it is what it is. So without further ado, here's what I've got so far:
- To feel confident in a swimming suit
- To not run the other way when I run into a boy I kissed or dated when I was thin
- To cross my legs comfortably
- To feel like I can participate when my friends want to play sports/go dancing, without worrying about what I look like
- To not have to wonder if a store will have my size
- To wear the bright red corduroy skinnies I've had in my closet for a year
- To not wonder if I'm the heaviest person in my class at the gym
- To wear a tank top instead of a baggy shirt at the gym
- To not untag myself in pictures on Facebook
- To continue to see my energy and stamina increase
- To shop for clothes that are really my style-not just clothes that are cute and fit
- To cut my hair super short
- To set healthy habits for life, that I can pass on to my kids, if I ever have any
- To pull out all of my "skinny" clothes and get rid of my "fat" clothes
- To see my collarbones (I just really really love collarbones..)
- To have a healthy relationship with food
- To be able to say I did it.
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